I’m feeling annoyed that I made a stupid resolution to write these things daily this year. I’m not entirely sure that this is the root of my annoyance though. It’s actually highly likely not. We played games with friends this evening and before the gaming we had dinner during which we talked briefly about sinus infections and allergies and treatments. I am currently taking prednisone along with some antibiotics and a nasal spray because my allergy doctor was concerned about the fact that I seemed quite congested at our visit after I had been undergoing treatment with allergy shots over the last six months. He basically wanted to treat me for a possible case of chronic sinus infection.
This particular treatment has been awesome. I’m able to breath clearly through both nostrils which is something rare for me and not really something can remember. Even when my nostrils were “clear” before, I can see now that they weren’t as clear as they’ve been over the last five days of treatment. Today was my last dosage of prednisone. I had mentioned this in passing to our friends, and they had related warnings how prednisone can make one irritable. I had seen that it could possible cause depression.
In retrospect, I think it may have been effecting my mood in this way. It’s hard to tell though because I’m naturally prone to feeling depressed when it’s rainy and overcast as it has been for the last few days. Today was extremely foggy and wet and dreary. As I was feeding the dogs this morning, I was disturbed by the grating slurping sound of rain drops hitting the saturated foot mat that we have on our back porch. Drip. Drip. Drip.
It did seem as though an internal fog shrouded my thoughts today painting everything as grey as the world outside. We can expect more of this ickiness tomorrow and Thursday – possibly with some snow flurries. I hate snow flurries. Once we I had never seen snow accumulation, the sight of snow flurries dancing light walzes in the air had been a jolt of excitement, but now they are just a reminder that I’m far away from real snow and the possibility of skiing.
So now the question is whether or not the irritated state of mind that I found myself in when I started writing this entry was from the prednisone, the mere suggestion that prednisone could cause irritation, from going to bed too late last night, finding the rules of Race for the Galaxy frustrating, or all of the above.
Of course, there’s always the background malaise of the suffering and death piling up daily everywhere. The abandoned pets being executed. The homeless people living a wretched existence. The people weeping over the loss of loved ones. People getting sick or dying for lack of access to health care. People losing their jobs and then their homes. People who are better off spitting words of contempt like fiery projectiles onto the heads of the poor. Bombs dropping to shatter buildings and bodies.
I could continue, but I’ll stop now. I’ve met my quota and I think I’m rather tired.
Perspective is a wonderful thing. You know the past few days where it’s being cold, rainy, damp, etc. were quite enjoyable to me. I was driving my (British) Range Rover, wearing my (British) Hackett waxed-oil jacket that has a little Union Jack flag on the pocket, listening to my favourite singer, the very British Morrissey, singing one of his best and all of this while it was pouring down with rain and a little foggy to boot. Apart from driving on the wrong side of the road I could have easily been in England. It reminded me so much of home and with all I was wearing, driving, and listening to just screamed ENGLAND. I loved it!!
No one likes yucky days but sometimes they are the perfect excuse to take a moment and relax – go to a movie, indulge in a hot chocolate with extra fresh cream, stay inside and play a game, etc.
There’s always a good side to things and the challenge is to remind ourselves of that and find it. So, next rainy day mate, think of something that you’re doing that you otherwise wouldn’t be doing and take a moment to love it.
That’s nice. Yeah, this morning I actually tried to embrace the rain by putting on Nick Cave and the Bad Seed’s Your Funeral… My Trial. When I got to the song “The Carny” with its eerie description of traveling carnival caught in the rain and the dwarves having to bury a horse named Sorrow that had wasted away and died along the way between stops, I thought it fit very nicely. To be honest, the day started off pretty well and was actually perfectly fine. I just ended in a haze followed by a minor note of irritation that I’m over now.
Are you going to see Morrissey at the end of the month? Melinda and I have tickets and are looking forward to finally seeing him live.
Oh my old mate Moz… Had tickets for his last concert in Atlanta, cancelled. Had them for Asheviile, cancelled… This last tour I booked flights, hotel, etc. to see him in Vegas, cancelled. I still went to Vegas and had a blast though. So, now we have the new dates and I’m out of town in Miami the entire week he’s in the south. I’ll see him in another city though. Looking at my schedule over the next couple of months.